Sunday, November 4, 2007

Growing Up

For all of the viewers whom do not have myspace.com access, this was my very first attempt to writing what I was feeling post-breakup with my first North Carolina boyfriend. The particular details of this heartache I do not feel the need to include in this blog; however, if I could have one wish from you all reading it, it would be for a greater understanding of yourselves through the truth I have come to realize. Everyone has suffered a heartache- losing a beloved friend, a husband or wife, lover, sister or brother. The words I had written over a year ago at this point have the paradoxical congruency to nearly every situation I have encountered in my adult life.

Without further rambling, here is my excerpt from my old blog:

"Sometimes the hardest part of life is knowing you can't change things, and yet things always change. You can't help who you love, and you can't love people who don't help themselves. There is nothing worse in life than letting something go that you love more than anything, but its a part of growing up. You can't let people walk all over you, and you definitely can't keep letting your heart get broken repeatedly. People mess up, people need to forgive. Well, I guess I can forgive, but this time I can't forget.

I know I sound like some sort of lecturer, but I wanted to share what I learned this weekend. Basically it boils down to the following: Don't let people take you for granted, don't be with people who can't listen, but most importantly, don't fall in love with someone who is dumb enough to throw it all away on some easy opportunity next door. "

Let me be the first to assert that I was extremely hostile in the second paragraph of what I had learned on that particular weekend. However, when taken out of context, the main point still resounds true. People will always go for the easy option, and everything in life that is worthwhile is exactly that--- it is WORTH fighting for. And, of course, if it isn't, you need to let it go.

In high school, I remember senior quotes day. People always picked quotes having something to do with the following sentimentality: "Life is too short" or "I live for the moments I will never remember with the friends I will never forget." These quotes, despite their juvenile appeal, are actually quite accurate. Go out there, get your life together, get exactly what you want- because it is in fact true, you only live once. This leaves you with two options: 1. You can sit there read this blog and smile because you can relate to it, or 2. Let these words inspire you- get up, get happy, and get out there. Life is too short to dwell in the past.

Final thought:
Live for the day, learn from yesterday, and know that tomorrow is always a fresh beginning to the rest of your life.

2 comments:

Erin said...

Excellent first post my dear. I hope to see many more in the future.

Chubbs said...

(Just as an intro, since you are probably thinking "who the hell is brian..." I'm Erin's friend, she pointed me to your blog because she knew it would pique my interest. I 'm the same Brian that was married to Allison [Hickey] before that went terribly wrong. I'm that Brian:)

I'm going to comment on both writings with this one. First of all, I couldn't listen to that song you recommended for more than 2 minutes, haha I'm sorry. Now, to my real comments.

I have to say, I like your writing style. It's very real, if that makes sense. What is more real, however, is your point of view on several things that I have to agree completely on.

In the first blog, I know exactly where you are coming from. I've been there a couple times, as the backseat friend. It sucks just as bad on that side, So I'm pretty sure that guy felt/feels almost exactly the same as you.

Your second blog I couldn't have written any better myself. I would cite you for blatant plagiarism, but as it turns out I can't copyright the thoughts in my head. I've had the unfortunate opportunity to learn what you learned the hard way also, and as rough as it is, I think than people like us have a distinct advantage over others. I have a feeling that you will never settle for a mediocre relationship ever again, and I know that I sure as hell won't. Learning young is awful and fantastic in the same breath.

I know that we have only conversed in real life maybe once or twice, if that. But, if you ever need a second opinion from a guy's point of view, I'd be happy to give you mine... haha just ask Erin. Or, if you just feel like bs'ing I'm online a lot. (airitemsincluded on aim.)

Anyways, just wanted to share my thoughts. Keep writing though, you do it well.